$10,000 walk to save my life

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  1. The Pan

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    Walking away from my house with a very inappropriately pack Kelty Tioga it don't matter I got fire I got a whatever I got I don't know if I keep going the way I'm going to be dead turn the lock away and go change up some place for a couple months. All of recommendations invited so far my neighbor 4 time Vietnam vet he told me to go to Sturgis in anyway I'm headed to South Dakota so let's see what happens if y'all can follow along I'll do the best I can to keep up thank you Brothers I just can't stay at my crib no more it's killing me. I'm leaving because I'm not ready to die yet but the Whiskey's killing me it's a strange thing to have no bills and nobody loves you and no family and no nothing no responsibilities know anything $16,000 cash in your in your hand and yet maybe I'm I'm not saying I'm an idiot but I'm saying that I know what to do with it 53 years old group of felonies tried to fight against the world one you try to get better in yet hello mess nice job it's just hard to it's just difficult man just like the world don't leave me the world doesn't need me anymore money or no money doesn't matter
     
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    Prayers out for you brother. Sounds like an impossibly tough situation. :(

    Is there anyone from BCUSA in the area that you could stay with? If you were in New England, I would offer to help in any way I can. :)
     
  3. crewhead05

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    This one was pretty hard to decipher for me, hope you are doing ok. Obviously you have lots of thoughts spinning around your head
     
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    Be well with your travels. You do have friends. Those around you and those here. Don't be feared of reaching out to those who can help you.
     
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    I re-read the OP a few times and I'm still scratching my head. I hope you find peace.
     
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    Peace and prayers brother. Stay calm and dont despair.

    You have time. Be patient and make the best decision.

    Be safe. We are praying for you.
     
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    Smoke going up
     
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    Hang in there. Maybe check into a hotel somewhere. Clean up, relax, and think things over.
     
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    Call 1-800-273-8255 if you need to talk to someone, buddy! Be well and be safe!
     
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    Hang in there, @The Pan. No matter how bad things are now they can get better.
     
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    Prayers offered. I hope things get better. joe
     
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    Sounds like a not so good situation. Hope things take an upturn for you. Get away from the bottle. It's a long and hard road, but the reward is worth the work. Best of luck to you buddy. No one can make the decision but you.
     
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    Not so fast, bud. If you have been drinking heavily and are worried about withdrawal, please do not just walk into the woods. It could be fatal. Seek medical attention. Once you're safe, figure out what's going on.
     
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    @The Pan my cell is 860-798-1896. Call me anytime. I am here for you. Prayers lifted for you, you are not alone.
     
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    I think a change of scenery is good, it gets you out of enabling and encouraging environments and habits.

    Still, there's booze or substance anywhere you go if you allow yourself. So sooner or later your going to have to face that part of it and leave it behind, scenery alone can't do that. Both sounds like exactly what you need. If you're in too deep, you may need help, and thats okay, but only you know that.

    Every time you post, although its hard to understand what you're saying, you can read the pain and anger. The world isn't judging you as much as you are judging yourself.

    You can make friends, real friends, but first you have to worry about yourself.

    Good luck on your trip, I hope you find what you're looking for, and I hope you find yourself.
     
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    Prayers offered for insight and peace mind.
     
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    Please think about taking that $$ and getting into a treatment facility. It is going to be an investment that will repay itself hundreds of times over and its the best place to run to right now.

    Be strong brother. In my opinion sobriety should be your destination, not Sturgis.
     
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    What halts action, becomes the cause of action. The obstacle is the way.

    Do not look into the darkness too long, the darkness may look into you.

    Be well brother. I live near Sturgis and will be watching this thread.
     
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    I sense a lot of pain in your words. The first step is speaking up and addressing your thoughts. Two positives are no bills and no responsibilities. I wish you well in your travels and hope you find your purpose.
     
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    Try Slowing down.
    I got a couch but it's full of whoreshit 300 some otto days a year

    Edit. Save the money.
    Real friends and life don't want it.
     
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    This may be the low point in your life, there is always hope and a way. Please hang on. Love will find you.
     
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    My friend hang in there, you got this. And you do have friends, we are here for you. Sounds like you know you need to reach out, please do brother. 937-304-4219 Anytime.
     
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    I do believe it was “the Pan” that said “to live will be an awfully big adventure”.

    Keep in mind that adventures have ups and downs.

    Reach out if you need to talk.
     
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    @The Pan , whatever you do, don't hit the road with $16K in cash on you. Really, really bad idea. If it doesn't get stolen by criminals, the cops will take it from you. Put it in a bank, get a debit card, and play it smart. Beyond that, good luck, whatever course you set.
     
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    Let us know if we can help. You are not alone.
     
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    Prayers for you @The Pan, hope you're doing better.
     
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    Truly! How's the journey going @The Pan?
     
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    stay in touch, we care
     
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    Still here too, @The Pan. How are you doing, brother?
     
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    He is around, but has not come back to this thread. (?)
     
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    Hey Peter, hope you're hanging in there. Like others have said maybe rethink some of this...reach out ...my phone is on all the time. 984-960-8079. Please be safe.
     
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    mercy ...
     
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    Hey man I've been to those dark places. You do what you need to do, just be safe. Just remember every problem is TEMPORARY.
     

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