I got a call today from the hospital back home my father has been in and out of. The time has come to make some hard choices. Without getting into detail of his issues, he is in the ICU and they are keeping him alive. Problem is he is in tremendous pain. I needed to get with my brother who still lives out there to approve a DNR so they can treat his pain. Without the DNR they will keep him alive no matter what happens and he will just be suffering. The fear is the pain meds will lower his blood pressure to the point he won’t survive. It’s hard but I love him and suffering isn’t an option. So tomorrow I travel home. I can stay a few days. The Dr. only expects a day or two but it could be a few weeks. Who knows, I just don’t want him to suffer. Mom passed four years ago. Last time I saw my dad he was in bad shape and not the man I remember. Watching your parents age can be pretty hard. I also suspect you’re never ready to say goodbye. Soon my brother and I will be on our own. Man it’s hard. I just don’t want him to suffer or be in pain anymore. So yea, any prayers, smoke, thoughts, reflections or kind words are certainly welcome. Dad before he headed downhill. Dad, when I was a kid, doing what he loved to do.