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  1. Wasp

    Wasp We are GO for Sting! Supporter

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    I have been having major health issues for months now and it just continues to build and get worse and more confusing. The doctors are clueless which actually has a double meaning. I have lost complete faith in the medical community as a whole.

    I'm hurting, I'm tired, I'm tired of hurting, I'm exhausted, I'm tired of explaining myself, I'm tired of thinking about it all. Quite frankly I have not much else to say about it all. I'm tired.

    I don't want prayers or well wishes. I just don't know where to go from here.
     
  2. JohnP

    JohnP No more half measures Supporter Bushcraft Friend

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    Several years my uncle was not feeling well for months. He went to many, many doctors in New Mexico and west Texas. I finally convinced him to go to the medical center in Houston. It took them about two days to find the problem, performed minor surgery and, Bobs your uncle. Don’t know that it would work for you, but there are some amazing doctors there. Truly amazing.

    JohnP
     
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    In 1999 my wife had an emergency problem (bleeding tumor) and had surgery in the Houston Medical Center. After surgery, she had some trouble with her eyes and a specialist was called in. He determined that the problem was in the back of the eye and he specialized in the front of the eye so he called for another doctor. The Med Center really is a special place.
     
  4. Wasp

    Wasp We are GO for Sting! Supporter

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    There's so much screwed up right now I don't even really want to get better.
     
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    Im sorry . But that is unacceptable .

    I understand and am going to pass two thoughts/quotes that have spoken to me many many times
    Don't worry about tommorrow, think about today- my wife. Stricken with MS in at 40 .
    Harden the fuck up .- Chopper Reid
    Can't Quit .Not dead . Told to me via Kyle Defoor . Which was the mantra of a paraplegic ultra marathon runner.

    I get your frustration and sense of hopelessness .And I sympathize with you .

    But focus on the small gains .The tiny victories.

    Pm if you need to .
     
  6. nograveconcern

    nograveconcern Hobbyist Hobbyist Bushclass I

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    Well, you haven't explained the condition and may not want to. That's fine. You say you are tired and hurting/in pain. Have you tried adjusting your diet? Eliminate refined sugar, low GI carbs? It affects sleep, inflammation, pain, energy cycles, etc. Takes a week or 2 to get used to.

    I could be way off, so smoke sent as well.
     
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    I had not anything about your health for a while, and hoped you were improving. Sorry to hear that is not the case. Maybe a good cup of coffee, bacon, and some bannock would brighten your day.

    Garry
     
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    Prayers offered, that's all I can do. joe
     
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    I have been and will continue to pray for you anyway.

    You have to keep your head right. That you do have power over.
     
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    I was just thinking of you last night and was planning on a pm to see how you are doing.

    I know you are tired and frustrated. But I wanted to personally say thank you. Watching you fight for answers and want to get better has really propelled me to stop just accepting being in pain and actually forcing doctors to actually listen to me. So far they have answered 1 question out of a million questions and fingers crossed on Monday they can answer another 1.

    Step by step day by day
     
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    I wish you health an happiness @Wasp . I will send some smoke up like it or not.
     
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    if I knew nothing else about you... (and I really don't)... someone who has almost 10000 messages and over 40,000 likes on the forum has probably had more impact on folks then they realize. But I get it... hope some answers that make sense and some peace of mind is found soon.
    Niagara
     
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    I'm sorry this is happening to you. I'm praying for you. We are thinking about you.


    By the way, I do work (clerk work) in the medical center they are talking about, and they are correct. There are more specialties in that medical center than I ever knew about as a paramedic, and some of the best physicians in the world treat patients and teach residents there. Give it a try.
     
  14. Wasp

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    I cant, my insurance won't pay for out of state, and theres nothing left in state. They won't even pay for an epipen which I have been prescribed twice in the last month.
    I've about listed my complications a few times here but I just can't, or won't. They've screwed around now to the point that there is likely permanent damage.
     
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    That sucks, @Wasp. Is there any possible way to pull up stakes and move? Maybe another area will have some medical centers that can find the problem.
     
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    Man, I'm sorry.
     
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    I am not a doctor nor do I smoke the stuff, but some natural medical marijuana comes to mind.
     
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    Damn! I love that! Wasp, we are here to support you, bro!
     
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    As you probably figured out, I'm not a fan of conventional Medicine's approach towards treating chronic diseases.

    That said, it does excel at certain things. Diagnostics is one of those things. But you need the doctor to prescribe the right tests and the results need to be interpreted correctly. You have to keep trying to identify the cause of what's going on--then you can come up with a plan.

    I think that I asked once before, but are they checking for parasites--and not just the common ones?

    You have to keep your morale up.

    We are all pulling for you.

    You remain in my prayers.
     
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    Praying for you, Brother.
     
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    Still praying for you @Wasp, we all care about you very much!
     
  22. NevadaBlue

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    Well. Your health is of primary importance.
    Can the Med Center refuse you if you show up there? I don’t know for sure, but I don’t think so. Maybe others will have input.
    IMO, go there. Get help. Forget about insurance issues. Worry about money later. Countless worthless souls do this daily... EVERY day and get care. You are NOT worthless, so you should get even more special care.

    Don’t give up.

    Prayers continue.
     
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    Prayers continue for you my friend....
     
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    I am so far from where I even was a few months ago and it is so scary I can't believe it. I have a good family doc now and he's trying to help get me to Mayo but I may not make it as my insurance wont pay for out of state.
    My doc believes I may have Myositis or Myalgia. It has come on so fast but daily I struggle for air and my muscles hurt and I'm having severe abdominal pain. I never know what tomorrow brings.

    I'm not as brave as I once thought I was. I'm worried about my family.
     
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    I'm praying for you now, @Wasp
     
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    I know how depressing chronic pain and illness is, and how frustrating it is to have doctors that either can't or won't listen or help. I've been there for years myself. I don't have the answer either.

    I can only offer an ear to listen. One that may be able to offer suggestions if you want them, but willing to just listen if you don't.

    Relish every small gain. Something as small as an hour of reduced pain, a comfortable position, or some time with your family is something you can focus on to help with the frustration.

    Feel free to pm if you want.
     
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    Man, if he can figure out a way to get you to the Mayo clinic that could be a game changer.
     
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    Keeping on with prayers.
     
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    Prayers continue on your behalf.
     
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    Praying for you.
     
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    @Wasp, I pray that you find the peace within yourself to weather this difficult period. There is often an ebb and flow to chronic health conditions. Until the condition is diagnosed and an effective treatment is identified, there will be days (or perhaps even months) that are worse than others. The hardest thing to do is to remember, during the bad times, that "this, too, shall pass." There will come a time when your pain is lessened and your day to day energy is restored. Hope will return. And you will use those better periods to navigate the healthcare system and find treatments that work. They exist. Your doctors just have to figure out what's going on.

    In the meantime, I wanted to address something you said about not being as brave as you thought you were. When times are really hard, and it seems like all hope has collapsed, it's very tempting to think there is only one way out. But that thought is only that -- a thought. So I think that "bravery" in that situation has less to do with being "strong" (something that might not be possible under current conditions) and more to do with just realizing that the despair, as painful as it can be, is just a collection of thoughts and emotions that swirl around our heads. But those thoughts are not *you* per se -- you don't have to believe them. You can acknowledge that they're there without granting them credence.

    There is a many thousand year old system of attentional training called mindfulness meditation that I think is helpful when it comes to dealing with those sort of thoughts. It's not a religious or even spiritual thing, necessarily -- it's just a way of training your mind not to succumb to certain thoughts or behaviors. I have family members who work with combat vets with PTSD using similar techniques.

    Until this period passes, it might be worth looking into. PM me if you have any questions. It is something that I have turned to myself when dealing with chronic health issues.

    Peace be with you, brother.
     
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    @Wasp prayers continue for you my friend....
     
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    Wasp, the doctors may not know what's wrong with you but I can assure you that God knows.

    Prayers sent for your spirit to be lifted and your health restored.
     
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