smoke inbound. i know how it feel brother.i lost my mother so suddenly... one minute they said she was responding well to the medicine, a couple hours later i got a call saying she had a massive heart attack and was on machines, few hours later, she had another massive heart attack, and machines were keeping her alive. i had to make the decision to turn the machines off, i couldn't bring my self to go to the hospital. i contacted every family member i could for them to hurry there, they all made it. right as i told the doctors to turn them off, and hung up the phone, they called me back. seems she had other ideas and took the decision from me and went peacefully, a touch of a smile on her lips. i think she did it on purpose, so i would not have to live with the guilt of making that decision. if you ever need to talk, let me know. i miss my mother more than anything, she was my best friend. she always told me to follow my heart.